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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 08:10

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He knew the spot.

Why is it difficult to get a job?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Comes on , in middle age.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

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I was very sick at this time too.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

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I don,t even have a pension.

I was seconnd youngest,

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Ive learnt so much.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Why can't I lose weight?

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

What did i know ?

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Why did i forgive my father ?

He resisted the act ,that day.

Was to survive, this bastard.

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He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

If you could go back and rewrite the Legend of Korra, what would you change, and why?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

We were not on the streets..

One cannot live in the past .

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

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Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I could never make a relationship work though!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

When she asked me how she looked .

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I never cut or harmed myself..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

And i lived it daily.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Im still living with it.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

It was going to be , some day.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

All the time i was locked up.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Put me off passion for life!!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I was 9 years of age.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

My family never makes their pension either.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Who then, do I blame.?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

So whats the point in blame.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I think the readers, may guess!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I write beautiful poetry .

I have no regrets .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I said to her

I couldn’t, believe it.

This is soul school!.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I will be 64.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

But, we were locked up after school.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

So, i spoilt her more .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

But ive been too sick for many years..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

But it wasn’t much.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Would this be the day?

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I waited trembling.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

On the 31st of Jan this month .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

We all went to grammer schools

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She married twice! .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She found it foreign!.

She was in good health!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

My life is so biszare .

I was scared of men, in general

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She wouldn,t have been !

She loved him until the end.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..